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Wednesday, October 22, 2008 4:02 PM
I canot take diz any longer. i have to vent it out. bia la org nk ckp aku busok kn keluarga sendiri ke ape. to start it off, he's only my in-law aniwae, not my fcukin own flesh & blood. in case u wana noe, itz my BIL (1st sis husband) which im so mad wif. SO FREAKIN MAD!
Sowie to sae diz but eversince e dae he got married to my sis, i've never liked him. no respect for him at all. u tel me, wud u respect someone who is juz ur in-law but tries to control ur life? esp wen ur own father dozen do dat? dat man controlled my life since i was freakin 10 yrs old. dat man was also, e one who actuali lay his hand on me, sumtin which my dad never done before. wen i wanted to quit skul durin sec 5, i had to get approval from him even wen my dad agreed. wen i wanted to get into ITE, i had to enrol into a course which HE wanted. dat was e onli choice i had. n later wen i quit e course halfwae coz i juz didnt lyk it, he threw me out of his houz. yes, juz bcoz i quit a course which HE lyk & i dun. now u tell me, wud u respect a man like diz??!
Wen i finally got married, i tried to forgive dat man. i told myself, MAYB wteva he did durin e past was all for my own good. i hold nomore grudges towards him since den. besides, i tot, he was afterall my sister's husband. so out of respect to my sis whom i love, i tried to forget everytin. even wen i found out he was tellin tales abt me, i kept quiet. wana noe wt dat man said? he said my precious son, was an illegitimate child. yes, my own family member said dat. do u noe hw hurt i was? worst ting is, he said dat to my grandma. y he did so, i have no idea. mayb, he was stil havin grudges towards me? i dono. stil as said, i kept quiet. i juz didnt wana argue wif him on dat, esp since itz not true. ALLAH is my witness, he knows best. so to oders who kips accusin me of havin a child out of wedlock, i kept quiet not bcoz itz true, but bcoz i cant be bothered to entertain nonsense.
Now as to y im reali mad at diz man now, is bcoz he has gone too far, too much. diz tym round, i can never forgive him at all. all bcoz my 2nd sis & husband decided to take my parents in to stay wif dem now, dat man got mad for wtever reason i dono & started to sms my 2nd sis nasty tings. n wt made me so mad was wen he actuali said, after my parents move in wif my 2nd sis, he dun wana noe anitin abt my parents animore. he even told my parents dat once dey move out from his house, dey dun have to come back. n supposedly my parents will move mid-nov but dat man actuali told my parents to move out next week. now as a child, wud u b mad if someone who is not ur flesh & blood said dat to ur parents?? juz bcoz my parents is stayin at his houz nw & wana move, he had to said all dat??
Wen i spoke to my mum on e fon earlier, she was tellin me how she had been cryin e past few daes coz of diz. do u noe hw hurt i was knowin my mum, who is oredi in her 50+ is cryin daily?? u tel me, izit wrong of my parents to decide if dey wana move in wif anoder child of deirs? itz ridiculous ryt?!
So nw u noe y im so mad ryt. basically itz bcoz dat MAN had made my mum cried. n.i.super.hate.him.for.dat!!!!!
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